I want to die. the physical and emotional pain is too much. please help?

my world is collapsing. first off my husband and i were ttc our first baby and i miscarried not one not two but three times due to my pcos. last miscarriage was in february on valentines day. one before that was the day my nephew was born. one before that was two days after christmas a year ago. cant handle that. secondly i was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and tendonitis. i have been waking up in severe pain in my spine in my neck and upper back with migraines and my limbs are numb and tingling. i was prescribed skelaxin and tramadol because i had bad reactions on some of the narcotics. those meds dont do ****. then i got laid off which to be honest i might as well have because i can barely get out of bed anymore. then yesterday...oh yes it had to happen...my husband lost his job. we had to drain our savings last month on my meds and doctors visits because i had no insurance and now we are going to lose our apartment. we have 150 in the bank and 800 dollars worth of bills due this week. im just ready to die. seriously i never thought at 21 id feel this way but i do. two weeks ago we were fine and dandy the pain was manageable and we had jobs and i was starting the grieving process for the babies i lost. now its all gone downhill. i really am considering suicide. im probably too chicken **** to go through with it but its on my mind. i havent slept more than 5 hours in 4 days either so i feel like im going nuts. anybody have any advice? how the hell can i get myself out of this hole?